Life On Rent

College over. Now what???? A big fat pay cheque or search for myself?
I took this route to uncertainity.....
Landed with my rucksuck and squeezed myself into a studio apartment. Hated the idea of living in a hostel(due to reasons that cannot be mentioned).
Living alone!! What do you associate it with?? Lots of liberties, late nights(although my job never allowed me to,we had our late nights at office) and ofcourse "Who Cares" attitude. Right??? So do i. There isnt a nanny to check me for littering the room or kaka to turn of the music when i listen to it at full blastlate at night(though neighbours complain at times), eat anything or everything ,without Ma forcing me to. And the list doesnt end here. Its my own house( or room,as i call it), there is no one to answer to,when i come home late at night or when a call friends over or when i sleep through an entire sunday without bothering to answer the door knock no matter whoever is there.
Still setting aside the frills and thrills of living alone,there are loads of hard pills associated with it. The first one being paying the rent(leaves a big hole in my pocket),washing and ironing clothes,ignoring noisy neighbours when my guy friends come over or leave me home. Life is on a fast track,yet there are times I feel lonely. A stranger in a strange land,where there are many people to ask "How i am doing" but dont have the time to listen to my reply. Chill of loneliness hits me,esp. when i get home,unlock the door and enter into lonesomeness,thats when my mobile beeps and a concerened voice asks me "Kaisi ho??kuch khaya ki nahi??thak gayi kya???etc etc. And with a suppressed irritation I reply, " Yes Ma(Although i had nothing since morning and my work is in drain).
And yet i miss Ma the most. i wish she were here to pamper me . I miss her Chicken Curry. Eating home cooked food is a long lost dream now. Not that i cannot move the ladle,but the entire process of cooking bores me. My diet is Anda pav and pani puri.
Living alone is fun,i m sure everyone of the same league agree and has felt what i feel. The joy of creating my own home all by myself,away from home........