MY LIFE!!!!!!

My Life!


Obviously I am starting off, hoping this’ll be the best thing I’ve ever written, but I am as clueless about what’s next, as much as you are! I am just going to put down, whatever comes to mind. I am listening to some high tempo-ed music and obviously, my energies at the moment are sky rocketing! This is rather rare as some near and dear ones feel otherwise! I feel like the strongest, the greatest this world has ever produced… So what if I haven’t done anything significant (YET!) but I know for a fact, that is about to change soon. This is not like a narcissist’s post but can you ignore or choose not to believe that the sun rises from the east! You can choose to be an ostrich and put you are head into a burrow and believe that you are the only one on this earth (or in that burrow!) Today was a total “At-Home” day and very funny too… God knows after how long I actually helped my mum cook and sat at home, vain and paper weighted! I know for a fact I warmed up all the couches but it was fun! The funniest part was, my mother kept telling me that she “missed me” being home and how practically my entire family thinks that I am a loner and a recluse! But like hell I am all that! I know for a fact they have not the slightest clue on what I really am. Yup in shades, I prefer solitude but there is a more powerful and more social side to me! They choose not to acknowledge that side of me but, my folks that’s really does!

There are certain things that come to us all, innately, and nothing in this world can take that away from us! So what if the world is crowded by fake, hypocritical people who might epitomize the “perfect person” to the many other fools, by their shallow, double standard, sugar coated ways. But do they realize this triviality of theirs! No denying that they are the epicenter of the entire bustle and from them they think radiates all the fun but do they ever realize that they are also the center for all the humbug! But then again as if by me saying how I feel, things for such “frivolous” being will change! I am glad I am what I am and will be me for the rest of my stay here and hopefully will be the same if I ever come back (if there is any such thing, that is:) I am not here to please anyone or be what others want me to be… I am only what I want to be. I am human too and so what if my energies do not match up to the others, so does that mean I should cover up and become something I am not? If I am sad you know I am sad… if I am happy, you know I am happy! It’s a pity if you can cover up your face in that fake-ly “genuine” smile! Stand up for yourself! People need to accept you the way you are and to hell with those sidey comments that they pass! It doesn’t really matter, or wait… does it? I don’t know and honestly don’t care! Yes my family (with best friends included!) means the world to me. How ironically it is but people who where themselves were either termed “great” or “crazy” or “eccentric” by this fraud society, but in either case made it to being discussed! Where others (i.e. the society) really that jobless to sit and analyse them and their ways and attach a name to them? Whatever be it I don’t care!

One day, I asked a very infinity close friend of mine to go through my stuff and comment, as it really made a difference to me and that person told me that “it” found me very wannabe-ish, like those so called “cool wannabe rebel” types and I was stunned beyond imagination because honestly I was not even expecting to hear something like that! I got all defensive and wanted them to look though my perspective but it ended in this is how I feel sort of a way! That made me think, if I really was being something I am not and then it struck me that I had lost my senses. I sometimes really take myself by storm! The only thing that really surprises me is myself, for the entire spectrum of emotions that I carry! At one minute I am crying, laughing and at the other minute I lost in time, taken a train to the past and weeping. But I feel too, so is it wrong to feel low when I honestly am low? Fine, I do not expect people to be with me and make me feel better, but how can the others expect me to commit adultery and feel happy and high-ed! No! Yeah I know life is too short to cry and sulk and all that jazz but what about me and how I honestly feel! Am I always suppose to be made up? I refuse to wear that powdery layer and hide myself with all that fakeness. Pseudos, common now, emancipate yourself and show the world who YOU really are!

P.S. Thank you for having read and hahaha if you tried finding a connect between 2 words and if you did, hats off! If you remotely agree or disagree with me, you are free to commentJ Not that what I say needs to make sense to you and vice versa, but maybe it’ll initiate a discussion to something else more meaningful and fact-ful